Being a Christian isn’t easy….

This post is not to complain, because I LOVE my life in Christ. It’s to shed light on the simple truths that people may not tell you when you welcome salvation….

1. You lose people

You start falling in love with God, and sometimes you may be the only person for a while that is committing and one by one they all flee. When those people flee, God replaces them with incredible, God-fearing, world shakers that awaken something in you and causes you to be a better you.

2. Self-condemnation

You begin to feel guilty with every single thing you do, sometimes it’s hard to sleep because you can’t stop thinking about yesterday’s mistake, but in those moments God gently whispers in your ears “Christ died for you, so you can live. I LOVE YOU and nothing will ever change that.”

3. You have to reassess everything

You may have been going down a path that doesn’t align with the path that God uniquely created for you, so now you have to start from point A and figure it all out……..actually, you just start from where you are because God has it all already figured it out and He knew you would get to this point before you did.

You know now that I think about it being a Christian isn’t hard at all, life without God is hard. Waking up everyday relying on your strength, depending on your own schemes, self-soothing with temporary things. Been there done that and I wouldn’t trade my new found freedom with anything.

 

FOCUS.

Without a doubt, I believe that Christ is working through you to be the answer to a crying world.

BUT YOU HAVE TO STAY FOCUSED!

To think that the stranger you just walked by is waiting to hear your story and how God brought you through, but you’re distracted by pointless things.

We blame the enemy for illnesses, drugs, alcohol, basically items. Guess what the enemy is doing the most of, but you have no idea….DISTRACTING YOU!…..what?!

How many hours are you on social media? How many times do you put off something for tomorrow? How many times do you say I don’t have time?

If you’re on social media, use it to shed light. If you get that thing done today, you can do something totally different tomorrow and you would obviously have more time, if you stopped putting things off and prioritized.

This may be coming off harsh, but you’re SO VALUABLE to lives being changed for the better around the world, but you’re distracted by things that ultimately don’t matter.

This is the year for authenticity. Dive in and be uniquely you and most of all stay FOCUSED.

The Journey.

What does it take for you to move your feet?

What does it take for you to be bold and step out of the boat?

How many lives do you need to know are dependent on you walking in your God-given purpose?

We put a lot of stipulations on when, how, and where we are going to move when God instructs.

The author and finisher, we call Him.

The Alpha and Omega, we call Him……Yet, we are willing to walk in circles over and over again in order to fulfill what we deem is the right way.

I plead to you today to allow God to instruct your every move and TRUST that He will never leave or fail you. Learn from others mistakes. Don’t always wait for bad circumstances to learn the lesson. Let the Israelites motivate you……would you rather a 10 day journey or 40 years?! It’s up to you…..

PURPOSE.

As I sit behind this computer screen, I feel really nervous about what I am going to ask you…..let me just explain myself first.

Almost two years ago, I was sitting in my room with no purpose, rather sitting in my room and I wasn’t aware of my purpose. It’s completely frustrating to venture down all these roads and still feel empty and incomplete, knowing you’re not doing what you were birthed to do.

I finally had a conversation with God, being honest with myself I admitted to not having it all figured out. Several things were revealed to me in that moment, but there’s one particular thing I need your help with. God revealed that I would be creating a new line of Christian apparel, unlike anything else that currently exist(not knocking anyone, because they’re all awesome). Just the movement that would happen through the clothing that I would create. Here’s where you come in, I am currently in need of financial help to continue moving forward. I really want to avoid taking out any loans and I’ve hit a major roadblock with my finances.

I hear over and over again that the resources from God are right in front of us, but some are too scared to tap into those resources. So, here I am being bold and praying for a miracle. I’ve created a (click go fund me) GO FUND ME page with more info and I am asking for your DONATIONS. Even if you can’t donate PLEASE SHARE THIS BLOG and hopefully it will reach someone who feels led to donate to this. I can’t give out more info on the clothing until more things are copywritten, but trust me as soon as things start happening I will be sharing more and more. I am very excited for this new journey and I ask for your prayers of support and whatever you can donate to help me out.

Thank you beautiful people!! Have a blessed day.

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Testimony Time.

I’ll try to be brief, but I won’t make any promises….;)

Back story: From the age of maybe 14 until now, I’ve struggled with an addiction that took over my life. An addiction that made me question myself. An addiction that I hated and wanted more of all at the same time, as most addictions make you feel. I couldn’t tell family. I couldn’t tell friends….most of the time I couldn’t admit to myself what was going on….

I wasn’t raised in church or even understood who God was and salvation until I turned 16. I can’t even explain what that moment was like, I just KNOW that it felt like something I couldn’t see was psychically pulling me out of my seat. My heart was racing, all of my senses were at 100. It was the strangest thing, but I knew I had to do it. Today, that moment for me signifies the FACT that we are CHOSEN. God was not going to let me leave that church service the same way I came in, even if He had to do something supernaturally to help me out my seat LOL

Fast forward: Give or take some time after that I would find strength to stop, then my own desires would cause me to fall back, back and forth, back and forth for years. I hated myself. I would get depressed, but I still didn’t “want” to stop. I couldn’t stand to look at myself in the mirror. It got to a point where I would say, “I’m fine with going to hell, because I can’t shake this.” 

Can you imagine casting YOURSELF to hell, because you’ve convinced yourself you can’t be free?! Self-inflicted torture.

Even during these back and forth times, God, our loving and awesome God, would still show himself to me and do incredible things in my life……..but I would go crawling back to my choice of “drug”

Present time: It was getting bad, I knew there was more. Decided to seek help and understanding from people who struggled with the same thing. Went to YouTUBE and found a man telling his testimony that shook my world. He said the only time he was able to fully walk in his freedom was when he was more concerned with hurting the heart of the One he loves vs. temporary pleasure. What?! It’s that simple! Care about God’s feelings?!

TRULY CARE! All of these years with God and I didn’t really love Him and care for Him, like I should’ve. I hardly read the Word, hardly fasted, hardly meditated in His presence, hardly took time out to pray. Recently I fasted and my only desire going into the fast was the desire to have more of God. To know Him intimately. To desire Him above all of my wants (even the ones I consider to be good), desire Him above ministry work, just to HAVE MORE OF GOD!

TODAY, I CAN SAY THAT I AM WALKING IN MY FREEDOM AND I AM 100% IN LOVE WITH THE GOD I SERVE. EVERYDAY IS A NEW DAY FOR HIM TO BLOW MY MIND. WHATEVER YOU NEED FROM GOD, LET HIM BE THAT!!! YOU can’t do it on you own, WE NEED HIS STRENGTH TO BATTLE ADDICTIONS AND STRONGHOLDS. When you care about God, you care about His word, the time you spend with Him, and not doing anything that He is against. 

This is quite long and many may not read it, but KNOW THIS: During all those years, and even before I ever acknowledged Him. He has loved me, fully and intimately. When I was sinning, He loved me and it is His love for me that has set me free. HIS LOVE FOR YOU, WILL SET YOU FREE, NOTHING YOU DO CAN SEPARATE YOU FROM GOD’S LOVE!!!! DON’T WAIT UNTIL YOU “GET IT TOGETHER” COME NOW!! He’s waiting…..Please PRAY for me as I will be praying for you!

35 Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? 36 (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”[a]) 37 No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.” Romans 8:35-37 NIV 

After these scriptures if you keep reading in the Bible, it goes to tell you how NOTHING can separate you from God’s love.

 

God is FIGHTING FOR US.

A poem from a great friend of mine:

I hurt silently
No one hears my pain, No one feels my shame

No one knows my sorrow, No one sees my guilt

On the outside I smile and laugh, On the inside I drown from my own tears

It is easy to put on a disguise to misguide people who are looking, but can’t see that something more is really bothering me

They ask how are you and I reply fine, from their perspective I seem to be all rainbows and sunshine

No one takes the time to stop

No one takes the time to listen

No one cares about my soul being in anguish

No one cares about my bones being in agony

No one cares that my heart is dismayed

One day when I’m feeling at my loneliest

One day when I’m in despair

One day when I’m feeling insecure and inadequate, all I have strength enough to do is cry

I’m too weak to pray

I’m too weak to hold on to the little faith I’ve kept

I’m too weak to fight against the negative seeds the enemy plants in my mind

All of a sudden I feel at peace and know God is fighting for me, His army of angels are protecting me.