PURPOSE.

As I sit behind this computer screen, I feel really nervous about what I am going to ask you…..let me just explain myself first.

Almost two years ago, I was sitting in my room with no purpose, rather sitting in my room and I wasn’t aware of my purpose. It’s completely frustrating to venture down all these roads and still feel empty and incomplete, knowing you’re not doing what you were birthed to do.

I finally had a conversation with God, being honest with myself I admitted to not having it all figured out. Several things were revealed to me in that moment, but there’s one particular thing I need your help with. God revealed that I would be creating a new line of Christian apparel, unlike anything else that currently exist(not knocking anyone, because they’re all awesome). Just the movement that would happen through the clothing that I would create. Here’s where you come in, I am currently in need of financial help to continue moving forward. I really want to avoid taking out any loans and I’ve hit a major roadblock with my finances.

I hear over and over again that the resources from God are right in front of us, but some are too scared to tap into those resources. So, here I am being bold and praying for a miracle. I’ve created a (click go fund me) GO FUND ME page with more info and I am asking for your DONATIONS. Even if you can’t donate PLEASE SHARE THIS BLOG and hopefully it will reach someone who feels led to donate to this. I can’t give out more info on the clothing until more things are copywritten, but trust me as soon as things start happening I will be sharing more and more. I am very excited for this new journey and I ask for your prayers of support and whatever you can donate to help me out.

Thank you beautiful people!! Have a blessed day.

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Tears.

 

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This beautiful soul committed suicide today. Simone Battle is her name. I never heard of her and I am not sure that I have ever seen her picture, but today on my Instagram her picture is everywhere.

They say “RIP” as the caption. My first thought……oh no I wonder what happened?!

I read on only to find out, she’s pretty famous and the saddest part….she didn’t die, because she had an illness or got into a fatal accident-but, at some point she felt completely worthless and saw that the “only” way out was taking her life.

Several things, break my heart with this story, ONE THING completely frustrates me. 

All of the captions and I mean ALL of the captions that I SAW, referenced her beauty. Like the only reason you are sad that she took her life is because she’s beautiful ?? Now, I know alot of people didn’t know her personally, so they can only speak on what they see…….BUT, as you can see she is BEAUTIFUL, BUT her beauty couldn’t save her from the hands of depression.

We live in a society where everyone is completely obsessed with the way they look, not even necessarily for themselves, but for those watching. We have to look like we have it all together, even if we don’t. As, women some of us hide behind our make-up and some men hide behind the price tag of whatever they own. NONE OF THAT CAN SAVE YOU FROM THE HANDS OF DEPRESSION.

I know nothing about this young lady, besides the things that I’ve read online. One thing I didn’t read online, but that I’m sure of is, 24/7 people could have been telling her that she is beautiful, but that didn’t help her from depression. The crazy part would be if she got to a point where she didn’t even like the way she looked….wouldn’t that be something?!

My point is, we have to dig deeper in our relationships with people. My friends dress nice and are attractive, but I am connected with them to know when there is problem even when their hair is nice and make-up on point. Love people as deeply as you can. Honestly, care even for strangers. Say hello more often. Smile when walking down the street. Say thank you and let someone know they are appreciated. Never stop telling the ones you love that you love them. Lastly, be more compassionate, because if the first thing you think about when you hear about suicide is “they are so selfish”, then you’ve completely missed the point. I’ve never heard a depressed person say how much they love themselves and this is why they are committing suicide. Try to be more understanding. There are so many people who genuinely need help and love. Let’s stop being so selfish and be a positive impact to a crying world.

And if you haven’t heard it today I LOVE YOU AND CARE ABOUT YOU!!!

 

Quick Reminder.

I choose to look in the mirror, every morning and be that person’s #1 fan, because no one can tear you down as much as you can do to yourself. Walk upright ! Smile ! Don’t wait on something to happen, in order to smile-smile, because you know your worth and you won’t allow anyone to take that away from you. 

Embrace ALL of you! Your uniqueness is what will impact the world, not trying to fit in! You are beautiful, strong, smart, and a force to be reckoned with. I don’t know you personally, but I love you and if you haven’t heard it today or in a long time…FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, I LOVE YOU AND I HONOR YOU FOR BEING A GREAT INDIVIDUAL!! 🙂 

If Jesus Walked the Earth Today.

Excerpt from a friend:

If Jesus walked the Earth today, how would He look?

He would look a little like you, a little like me

He would be clothed with humility and integrity

With a hat of understanding and hoodie of compassion 

With a shirt that reads:

Keep Calm and Follow Me

He would be transparent, so when you looked at Him

You would see your reflection

and when He saw you, He would see

PERFECTION…

 

 

About ME.

I wanted this blog to be anonymous, while still connecting with people in different areas of life. What better way to connect than to get to know the person behind the words. So, here are a few facts about me…..

  • I believe that I was raised, and am still being influenced, by two of the greatest individuals to walk this earth, after Christ: MY PARENTS!
  • I love asking questions! It’s not good enough to me that YOU said it, I need to know more.
  • The above fact is what led me to my meeting and the best relationship I’ve ever had with GOD. I wanted to know Him, because I didn’t let others negative comments get in the way. 
  • I love hard and intimately. I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU! (Figuratively and LITERALLY 😉 )
  • I love being by myself. Not all the time, just enough to hear my own thoughts and reboot without any distractions.
  • I can’t be easily persuaded. If I don’t want to do something, NO amount of money can make me do it and if I changed my mind, chances are I already wanted to do it and the gift sweetened the deal LOL
  • I love giving, if I can wake up tomorrow and be able to fund, build, create organizations that can help every need around the world, then I absolutely would (God-willing, of course)
  • I love singing really bad and loud, it makes me laugh so hard.
  • Yes! I love to make myself laugh
  • I am a listener. I feel like people know that immediately, because strangers tell me their life story A LOT!
  • I am looking forward to getting married and having children
  • I already have my daughter’s name, so my future husband has to deal with that 🙂
  • I still struggle with caring too much about what my peers think of my choices.
  • I’ll be getting more transparent in future blogs, so get ready…..
  • I started this blog and continue for one reason only, TO GIVE GOD GLORY AND REACH PEOPLE THAT HE WILL HAVE CONNECT WITH THIS BLOG.
  • I will never understand how much or why God loves me as much as He does, but man I’m thankful that He does!!

One last fact, not about me, but about you- YOU ARE ROYALTY, YOU ARE A CHILD TO A KING. A KING THAT IS NOT ONLY A FATHER, BUT A FRIEND AND MANY MORE! HE LOVES YOU AND THERE’S NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO CHANGE THAT!! “THE ACHE YOU FEEL, THE DESIRE UNFULFILLED IT WAS MADE FOR HIM”  

Thoughts. Random Thoughts.

I have far too many thoughts in my head right now to just pick one, sooooo……I’LL BRIEFLY PUT ALL OF THEM IN ONE BLOG 😉

First topic: Waiting

Why is it so hard to wait for things God has promised? Why do we get so frustrated and start doubting? Why do we act like God will change His mind?…..I said “we”, because I’ve been there and I’m still working to do better.

First, off God will not say anything and then decide to change His mind, as if He’s saying “Oops, made a mistake!” NOT MY GOD! (Isaiah 55:11)

Second, we wait on God, instead of IN God. Waiting IN God, taps into His peace and grace to pass the time.(2 Cor 12:9)

Lastly, KNOW THE GOD YOU SERVE. He is ALPHA AND OMEGA. He has written your story and planned it out perfectly, in the beginning of time. (Psalm 139:16) 

Wait, patiently and don’t doubt. God is the beginning and the end, meaning the story is written in completion, meaning…..YOU ALREADY HAVE IT! IT’S ALREADY YOURS! NO WORRIES!!

Second topic: Addiction

Transparency Time: I struggle with an addiction, expressing my way out publicly, hopefully will help bring healing and deliverance to someone else.

It wasn’t until recently that I realized that a lot of the times we aren’t delivered from our struggles, because we make it personal instead of it being about God..”What do you mean?”

We selfishly want to be delivered, because we’re scared of what will happen to us, what people may think, etc. Instead, of wanting to be delivered,  because we want an authentic relationship with God. When your desires shift from selfishly wanting to be delivered vs wanting it, because you crave intimacy with God; then and only then will you be delivered(James 4:7). You need to desire God and want God, doing it for your own reasons will only be temporary and you will continue to struggle with an on-going addiction. The devil can only entice you with things you desire

Last topic: Humor

PLEASE PEOPLE OF GOD SMILE AND LAUGH MORE!!! Stop walking around with that “deep worship face” (some of you know what I mean 😉 ) Smile! You’ll be a better witness of God, if you simply smile more (Psalm 126:2)  

The Rainbow.

Thoughts from a friend. Absolutely had to share.

“DISCLAIMER: I USE LOL AND HAHAHA A LOT BECAUSE I LIKE TO LAUGH
 
Everyone who reads this article may laugh at me. I don’t blame you I would laugh at me, too.
 
Recently I have been feeling strongly-some type of way, on how people have changed the meaning of the rainbow. I have always been into colors. They are a very important part of my life, because I believe a person’s fave color gives you insight to their personality. I personally dream in color and every color has some special symbolism. I am in no way an expert about color and personality. I am simply stating my feelings based on limited knowledge.
 
You have the bright bolds, you have the soft pastels, then there are the earth-tones and the metallic, and probably more, but those are the only ones I know about LOL and love them all. It is basic information red, yellow, and blue are the primary colors and the mixtures of those produces orange, purple, and green. When learning about the color spectrum and light we learned the acronym roy g biv (red,orange,yellow,green,blue,indigo,violet) which are the hues that make up the colors of our topic….you guessed it! THE RAINBOW!!!!!!!!
 
The only reason I am writing about this topic is because it came about one sunny afternoon in southern Cali when my friend and I were discussing articles of clothing she will design for me in the near future (I HOPE SHE GETS THE HINT wink wink)LOL. So, I told her wait until after I get in a serious relationship with a man because I don’t want anyone to get the wrong conceptions about what I am, what I believe, what I support, or what I stand for. We both laughed and joked and that was the end of it. Days even weeks went by after our conversation, and I was writing to God about that topic-wearing rainbow and being in a serious relationship with my man (in the future) I am very much single!
 
Of course, me being raised in the church I know the story of Noah’s ark pretty well; well enough to know the rainbow was symbolism for God’s covenant (promise) he made with Noah (Genesis 9:12-17). I said all of that to say multi-colors separately or together are beautiful, why?! because EVERYTHING GOD CREATED IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!! (Ecclesiastes 3:11, Colossians 1:16) so if God made it, it is beautiful period.
 
Now let me explain why the rainbow is so valuable to me. On my journey of obedience and complete surrender God told me to give up the 2 biggest things I had going for myself at the time, me being ignorant I did, I let it go. I say ignorant, because I told myself God is going to bless me like “this” in “this amount of time” and when it didn’t happen the way I expected I was angry and felt it wasn’t worth it (check out when God disappoints you-Toure Roberts on vimeo). Thank God for grace, mercy, patience, understanding, and ordering my footsteps. Right here I have to give a shout out to Pastor Toure Roberts, One Church. His teaching, his wisdom, his pure heart, the live streams, the vimeos, and his realness helped me more than I could ever express!!!! Real Talk.
 
JOURNAL ENTRY
8-11-13 “Right now this is my season of transition. I don’t fully understand the process, but I know it will all be worth it. I know what I’m doing doesn’t make sense-it is against the norm, but I am standing on God’s promises for my life. I’m sure when Noah was building the ark he looked crazy to the outsiders he knew what God told him, he knew it would be worth it to receive God’s favor for being obedient and did not care about people’s opinions. Although what Noah did was unheard of, against the norm, unconventional at his time, God blessed him and his family because of his obedience, God told me not to worry about acceptance so I WON’T!!! because GOD IS THE ONLY ONE THAT MATTERS.”
 
I wrote that because I totally relate to Noah even now, because it is a whole lot I don’t understand about my path. I even got frustrated because people are willing to talk the talk but judge you for walking the walk (don’t get me started…hahaha) but I am more appreciative of my journey now and the character God is developing in me to be able to manage all he has promised me. Funny story I was watching “Certainty in Uncertain Times” a different message on vimeo from Pastor Toure, he was explaining the naming of The Arc (his non-profit organization) I was mind blown like wow Jesus!!!!! 
 
Anywho, if you see me at 614 n Labrea(One Church) say “Hey!”, i’ll be the lady wearing the rainbow earrings TURN UP! LOL
 
Love you guys be bold, stay beautiful, be happy, always smile, love unconditionally, never apologize for being you!
 
God created you on purpose to be creative and unique!!! Just like each color in the rainbow has significance so does every life and every person, it is only one race, the human race, WE ARE ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
THE ENTIRE STORY OF NOAH CAN BE FOUND IN GENESIS-the beginning (THE 1ST BOOK IN THE BIBLE) chapters 5-9″